And so, yeah, I think that's the biggest thing for me is just, yeah, not caring about this silly, superficial things of life.

Yeah.

I think I kind of alluded to it earlier, you know, the before Morty and Missy, you know, we were trying to navigate our life together, wanting to be happy and what were our plans were for our future together.

While I knew I still had five grieving daughters missing their mom and and trying to understand and accept dad moving on, moving forward.

And that I think that was kind of What I felt like our life was before Mason passed away, then after Mason passed away, kind of felt like it united us a little bit more as a family.

And, you know, just seeking out to God more and more, you know, after Angie passed away and I got involved in grief share.

I learned a lot going to Grief Share and trying to help others.

Yeah.

That's

right.

So I was just real with God and just let him know how I felt.

And then one day as I was sitting alone on my patio drinking coffee one morning, I began to think that, you know, if I die, I'm going to ask God, why? Why did you take her so soon? Why did you take away from her children and me and why we didn't have more time together on earth? because I didn't understand.

And in that moment, in my spirit, I didn't hear an audible voice from God, but in my spirit, I felt like God might tell me if I asked him that I did give her more time.

She was supposed to die earlier, years earlier.

And so when I put it in that perspective, It showed me that I needed to be thankful for what we did have and to stop being angry and bitter and resentful for what we're not going to have, you know, in the future.

Or I would just repeat Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.