Uh, you know, what, what's, what's been the best experience for you so far? Has there been a moment for you that's been the most significant playing one of these?

Yeah, Hellfest was crazy, 'cause...

Hell- Hellfest, I was just having a huge imposter moment, not gonna lie.

Like, I was like, "Why am I here?" [laughs] Why? Like, why is Spiritbox playing after us? Like, and, and Amara Alfiki, I think, right before us.

And I'm like...

And then Silly Me comes on stage.

Like, just...

Mm

so are you trying to i should have phrased that better are you trying to do the exact opposite on your off days and in your downtime

I get it.

Well, the problem is I'm very bad with structuring time and my day and everything.

I'm a night person and in the early time of the day, I do like everything else I have to figure out in my life.

Then I have to do my own work.

We're still working besides Future Palace.

And then I do all the Future Palace stuff kind of more in the evening till like usually like 2 or 4 a.m., So yeah, it is not really relaxing.

Do you have to do a lot of vocal care these days to keep that up?

Can you just talk to me about that? Am I on the money there? Am I just reading too much into it?

No, that's interesting because it was not that intentional, but my very, very first thought that I actually had now thinking about it I mean, I had the healing thought and stuff, but I'm also often on Pinterest and stuff and browse through so many ideas.

And I found that one picture of, I think, a shell, like the shell we use in the end.

These like abalone shells.

I don't know what they're called in English.

But they have this beautiful texture and colors that look somehow similar to these distortion colors.

And I saw this and was like...

yeah well I guess you flew over a lot of water when you went to America for the first time as well like what was that what was that like

Right

... uh, yeah, it was just the hardest song.

I don't even know how to, how to put it.

I, I have written many, many songs that were extremely hard to write for me, but something that just is so close to our hearts will forever be our childhood 'cause it just forms who we are.

It teaches us what love is.

It teaches us our value, our worth.

Like, it just, that's the start of everything, so of course your childhood I feel like is, like, something that will be with you forever.

Mm-hmm

Mm

... "My voice can't do it live." And as soon as I started working with her, she gave me hope again.

Like, "You know what? You're not the problem.

Your voice is not the problem.

You're doing way too much all the time." And that was a very great mirror, not only for my vocals, 'cause I did too much everywhere.

Um, and that's kinda what I tried to understand.

Or not tried, but that's something that was like a realization.

Yeah.

two albums called resurgence what was the thought behind that title and i know you've kind of gone on this journey as a lyricist through you know relationship issues into talking more about mental health but what led was inspiring you when you sat down for this record

Overall, resurgence is supposed to represent like a healing process of yourself and not only that, it's also a bit more about the band actually.

I've mentioned this now in a few other interviews, I struggled a lot over these past years with realizing that touring and being a musician is a bit different than what my romanticized version as a teenager was.

and i i put too much weight on it i put too much hope in it not to be like negative but i thought it would solve something that it just cannot solve or fulfill me in a way that it just can't um and i realized that around the time we were touring with electric cowboy because we've been playing huge arena shows and i always thought it was beautiful and we were extremely grateful and helped us a lot and i had fun but also i realized that it just doesn't do the thing that i hope it would do to me standing on like these huge stages and it does something to you of course and also hearing that your music helps others but it's just you just have to experience it yourself to understand it might be different for other people but just for me that's how it was and over these years I've struggled a lot with my voice on tour, with my mental health, with burnout, with depression, going from album to album to album to tour to tour to tour with no time in between to think if this is even what you really want in your life because no one really will show you what this world will be like And especially after, sadly, our North American tour, I was at a point where I was like, what's the point of this? I am so done.

And also before that, I had a moment of like, I'm not sure if I can keep doing this.

It's intense and it takes a long time.

We are absolutely not an overnight success band.

yes

two albums called resurgence what was the thought behind that title and i know you've kind of gone on this journey as a lyricist through you know relationship issues into talking more about mental health but what led was inspiring you when you sat down for this record

Overall, resurgence is supposed to represent like a healing process of yourself and not only that, it is also a bit more about the band actually.

I've mentioned this now in a few other interviews, I struggled a lot over these past years with realizing that touring and being a musician is a bit different than what my romanticized version as a teenager was.

and i i put too much weight on it i put too much hope in it not to be like negative but i thought it would solve something that it just cannot solve or fulfill me in a way that it just can't um and i realized that around the time we were touring with electric cowboy because we've been playing huge arena shows and i always thought it was beautiful and we were extremely grateful and helped us a lot and i had fun but also i realized that it just doesn't do the thing that i hoped it would do to me standing on like these huge stages and it does something to you of course and also hearing that your music helps others but it's just you just have to experience it yourself to understand it might be different for other people but just for me that's how it was and over these years i've struggled a lot with my voice on tour with my mental health with burnout with depression um Going from album to album to album to tour to tour to tour with no time in between to think if this is even what you really want in your life.

Because no one really will show you what this world will be like.

And especially after, sadly, our North American tour, I was at a point where I was like, what's the point of this? Like, I am so done.

And also before that, I had like a moment of like, I'm not sure if I can keep doing this.

Is that something along, I'm sure just working on your normal singing voice, is that something you focused on and trying to either change the way you scream or just improve that?

Maria, wie geht's dir denn?

Ähm, mir geht's eigentlich sehr gut.

Also mein Körper nicht, aber mir schon.

[lacht] Mein Körper schwitzt die ganze Zeit, aber ich bin sehr erleichtert.

Das war jetzt der Juni, jedes Wochenende 'ne Festivalshow.

Äh, wir waren Nova Rock, Grass Pop, ähm, gestern waren wir beim Paricon und heute Van Stream.

Äh, es war richtig heiß überall, aber hat sehr, sehr Spaß gemacht.

Okay.