Life is Worth Living

The pain, the pain was indes- you know, I can't, I can't describe it.

Um, um, I- I've, I, I had absolutely, I c- I'm, um, there's, there's a, there's a song by Justin Bieber called Life Is Worth Living, and I remember in my dark days listening to the song on repeat, desperately trying to find even just a fiber of my being that could hook onto that phrase and say, "Yes, maybe life is worth living." But I tried with all my might, and there was n- n- not a single be- fi- fiber of my being that could relate to that.

Um, and I was incredibly suicidal.

Um, I, you know, I had, um, for lack of a better word, my death dates, um, where if things had not improved by then, like I, it, it, I can't go on any longer.