and I was like this idea sucks um but

it's like I couldn't let go of it like yeah Emmy was just in my head like she was so visceral in my head for me and so clear and I was like no I really want to tell this story and like Luke was just like this nebulous I didn't know anything about him like I was like he's secondary like it's all about her and I had this sort of whole thing of like what if someone got married really young and they just never got to kind of experience it but they're but they want to do all of that sexual exploration when they're older.

And like, what would be the catalyst for all that happening and how, and how could it be really hot and really fun? And I thought about the books that I really, really enjoyed, particularly as sort of entry level, you know, smart reader, if you like.

And I love Salacious Players Club by Sarah Cates, one of my favourite series.

I adore the Alchemy series by Elodie Hart.

And so I had this, I was like, oh, you know, people can write about sex clubs and that's, you know, that's doable.

That's cool.

I can't take another bloated, glacial paced book where hardly anything happens.