Was there any time in that point of time that you thought about like giving up on all this shit? Or was that like a reflection of like, no, this is the point where I'm going to fucking like lock in?

yeah i think that there's a bit of both in that it's more so like musicians like there obviously is a thing called musicians depression and it's like you'll go up on like a high when you like come in like you know touring and everything's going really well and then all of a sudden like you know you put out something you put out a mixtape it's all gone awesome the momentum's there and then it's like now you don't have anything you've got to start again and so like when like you're when you don't understand that and you don't like get the concept of like you know like this shit happens You start feeling like a certain type of way and it can be like, you know, you can start feeling resentful or you can start feeling like just really in the pits or that's how I feel anyway.

And then I sort of had to find like a sort of like basically like a window of tolerance where I could sort of like streamline how like I felt and be like, all right, like there's little wins and whatever, but like say you hear some news, but it doesn't necessarily like lock in.

And it's like, you've got to sort of remember that like, not everything is always going to happen, but also not everything bad is going to happen.

And you've then to maintain that sort of stream of being like, you know, I'm doing well, like I'm out here, like I'm doing my thing.

I'm comfortable.

I'm able to do this.

that bro that's hectic