Okay

... and it becoming a burden on myself because now I have this understanding that I'm not fulfilling?" You know, it's like me going to the gym and, like, without even any thought of progressive overload, like, starting on a weight that's way too high for me.

So I thought maybe this year was a good start, like, to make that conscious decision to almost, if my knowledge is here and my, my soul or my heart is here-

Yeah.

You know, sometimes...

I can speak so much, sorry.

Sometimes I go home and my wife says, she told me once, "Oh, you said this, I saw this clip." Uh, someone's, one of her friends shared something that I must have said, and then she was like, "Are you sure about that?" I'm like, "Yeah, I mean, I..." Sometimes I'm like, I'm sure of what I said, and I can improve on that, in that, in that area, but it's, it's, it's, it's reality.

I mean, it's a mirror, it's a reflection.