gave up because I couldn't see a way out of

that.

Another scenario, my weapon got shot in my hand.

Bear in mind, the enemy's about 1,000 metres away and they shot me 8k out of my hand.

And being typical bloke bravado, the boss looked at me and went, why the fuck did you just drop your weapon? With a grin on his face, it changed atmospherics.

It worked.

Another scenario, the bloke next to me, to my left, he was in the 5-5, he was part of 5th support.

Bloody hell, you've been through the mill, mate, haven't

Yeah

... it's pointless for me.

So I just laid there.

I just wait to be killed, 'cause I could literally feel the rounds whistling past.

So I, I said goodbye to the kids.

I said, "I'm really, really sorry." I said, "I love you.

I'm sorry." I just waited to be killed.

Why is that? Why was d- why was ISIS different?

yeah it was absolutely fine could you just give us a brief sort of overview of your career then up to the time you went to sandhurst and we'll talk about sandhurst separately

Yeah, so like I said, Colin, I wanted to push myself, you know, because I wanted to prove not only to myself, but to everyone else I could do better.

So I went to the Welsh Guards.

I then went to Kenya.

Sorry, not Kenya.

Canada.

Then I applied to go to the Wrecking Platoon.

cute.

So can you tell us a little bit about your service?

yeah sure the ethos is the same you know we're all in it for the great good of humanity so as discussed before I was born in 1976 very ill six weeks premature two pound ball I wasn't supposed to live past my 16th birthday, I was supposed to have learning disabilities, the left side of my body would grow smaller, and during the birth my dad was asked who he would like to survive, me or my mum, he chose my mum, which you could understand.

My childhood was a wee bit difficult.

I was quite slow picking things up and obviously teenagers, being teenagers they picked up on that.

So that resulted in me being bullied.

I used to hide in school until my peers, loosely.

You used to go home and then I then went home about six at night.

Yeah.

You are so fortunate.

I do believe I've got a guardian angel.

And a friend of mine threw me to the ground, checked for my body armor, checked for blood.

There's nothing.

Same day, we carried on.

Same day, I'm lying behind an olive tree, which for reference, the stem was only about two inches, three inches maybe.

and rounds start cracking and the difference there's two differences between getting shot at if you hear a crack in the thumb it's a good six foot maybe six meters ahead you or above sorry when you hear a whistle that's within two feet of you and i was lying down and i could hear the whistles going past my head So I had a friend of mine to my right, and between us was a Syrian guy.

Okay.