When Blossom came home, Amica knew exactly what she had been doing.

I mean, I, I knew she was using because I could s- tell in her eyes.

I could see it in her eyes.

I knew, uh, I knew she was off.

I knew she wasn't fully there.

That scared the shit out of me.

I just didn't know what to do.

They had to wait for him to call them.

They were from a nearby traditional religious community

And she always wore kind of the long skirts and little bonnet and just was always really covered up and modest.

Just this really, really sweet couple, and we knew that they lived on a farm.

Um, oh, the other thing about this couple was that they, one thing that they really wanted was, at their birth, was they wanted us to be singing hymns.

And I was like, "Shoot, I don't know any hymns." And at that point in my life, I was definitely not Christian.

[laughs] And I was like...

You know, I didn't know any hymns for damn sure.

When she would visit, Amika would listen to the baby's heart rate, measure the mother's belly, and when the mother went into labor, Amika and another midwife met her at a small wooden house.

Is it, is it a reaction that you f- you feel from the world?

Absolutely.

Yeah.

I mean, I think that's really clear.

Like, it's really clear in the way that folks look at folks that are criminalized or have done time or caused harm, that we are now these non-deserving folks that are not...

That like our own healing and growth and survival and even joy, like those are things that we should not be able to experience anymore, that we shouldn't be able to move on from the greatest harm that we've ever committed in our life.

But I disagree with that.

But even though they felt so much hesitance toward anything that might look like moving on, Amica and the women inside would find little ways year after year to allow themselves happiness, to find joy.

They heard from bits and pieces over the radio that they were headed to a car accident.

You know, we roll up on scene and see a car seat kind of like up against the window.

I mean, that's always...

It's a baby.

Like, oh my God.

And so the sense of urgency, you take it to a different level at that point.

It's just, it's a awful feeling.

One time, she was delivering a baby for a husband and wife who were musicians, and they wanted to name their baby Cadence.

I think that surprises me.

It totally shocked me because I just thought it was this like world that I lived in of like, you know, whatever.

The wor- the underworld of drugs, it wasn't like somebody asks you to smoke at the beach and then it's meth instead of weed, right? And, uh, so I ended up smoking with him.

And then...

Oh, he filled up my gas tank though.

So he was like trying to hit on me, all that, whatever.

But he filled up my gas tank, so mission accomplished.

When she was returned back to her cell, she opened up her locker, and there were the pictures of Milo, Soleil, and Blossom.

We won't be using the victim's name in this story to protect his identity.

His wife was in the courtroom.

And I remember them talking about, you know, who he was.

Um, he was a pilot and w- flew in the Air Force here.

Um, so he'd done all this amazing stuff in his life.

And, um...

Sorry.

She was sentenced to nine years and eight months in California State Prison.